let's start all over again

I want to tear myself from this place, from this reality, rise up like a cloud and float away, melt into this humid summer night and dissolve somewhere far, over the hills. But I am here, my legs blocks of concrete, my lungs empty of air, my throat burning. There will be no floating away.

-The Kite Runner, Khaled Hosseini

困った！

In the space of 8 months, I have somehow forgotten (almost) all that I had learned the past 3 years.
All the basics I have learned to conduct a site analysis, it has somehow slipped my mind.
And I can't seem to decide on something as simple as a mere location for my final project.
KL. PJ. Cyberjaya. Putrajaya.
Why did I pick this place? What is there? Who is there? What does it have that I need to make my project work?
All the reasons.... pros and cons of choosing that certain location.
People are trying to give me advices and opinions, and it is more confusing than helpful.
I only have less than 2 weeks left to do all that and more.

ああ～全部も忘れてしまった！どうすればいい？

it's not locking everyone out it's keeping me in

I'M SO BORED!

College is slowly seeping back into my life, 3 weeks too early.
Compilation of design portfolios, concept researches, site location trips and analysis reports...to be done before the start of our semester.
Here we go again.
Not too sure if I'm ready for this.
For the past 2 months, I've been steadily discovering unpleasant truths about myself, which makes me wonder how am I supposed to go on.. with college, and after college.
The last semester is supposed to be the most important time.. and I hate when I begin to question myself.
What am I so afraid of?
What is so hard about speaking my mind?
Would I be a Reacher or a Settler?
Would I be able to break down all the barriers I've set around myself?