22

I should be happy for today. After all, 22 years ago, my life began on this day. I couldn't sleep yesterday. I kept tossing and turning because I couldn't stop thinking about life and death. Nothing new actually, I do that every birthday. Yes, weird habit. But its my way of feeling grateful that I'm celebrating another year of my life.
Death scares me in a way; like when you close your eyes, you experience.... nothing. Blank... silence.
I think that's what happens when we die. We become that blank. That nothingness.
No consciousness.
Doesn't that scare you?
Not existing ever again.
It makes me think that everything we see now is imaginary. What our mind imagines, our eyes see. And when we close our eyes, everything returns to nothing.
Right. Not sure if anyone got that.

Anyway. Back to gratitude.
I had a lot of unexpected people wishing me today, and that was a nice surprise.
It made me happy, I guess, that I wasn't forgotten, like I believed.
Because I know I lost touch with a lot of people ever since I started college 2 years ago and it made me feel bad.
The most unexpected one must be Wumi though, a foreigner from my college.
I had no idea how he got my number and he texted me saying stuff like 'from your stalker' and 'muahaha this is so mysterious' and to 'look out my window'. He scared me for a while there, I'll give you that.

I got a box of chocolates for the first time. Really. I wasn't expecting that.
Thank you, Shon. They made my night :)

It made me happy that I still had friends who waited till 12 to call or text and wish me first and all that, its sweet :)
Thank you, Tony :) Its nice to be remembered.
And Nikko, for wanting to be the first to sing me a song and wishing me "Happy Birthday" in a few languages, although I'm pretty sure his French, Italian, Indian and Teochew language was wrong.

Went out with King for lunch and movie.
Thank you for both.
And telling me you went around searching for tulips because I said they were my favorite flower, even though its the wrong season and all. I guess its hard to get tulips around here.
But it made me happy :)