I know I should stop but..

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I'll admit it.
I'm really really jealous.
Oh, the things I would do... just to be able to see him.

Been watching World Cup everyday. And I can't help but think.. while I'm here trying to get through everyday thinking assignments are the most important part of my life, there are people on the other side of Earth whose lives are changing at this instant, on a much bigger scale, depending on just a match.
When England lost, and the commentator said something along the lines of Gerrard, Rooney and a few others who may not return for World Cup in the next 4 years, it made me feel sad.
Because this was their final shot, and they just lost it for good.
Imagine how that must feel.

It makes me (and what I'm doing now) feel rather insignificant.
Like why should it matter if I manage to pass or not?
I still think its weird how the course of our lives is not what we make of it, but we rely on a mere slip of paper to tell us whether we will fail or succeed in life.
How delusional is that?
And the fact that I'm doing exactly what I don't believe in, just because society and everyone else demands it of me.
That makes this 'war' rather meaningless, don't you think?
Like I'm running... chasing after something, then I stop to take a breather and I wonder what it is I'm actually chasing after. Is it really something I want, or am I doing it only because I see everyone else running after it?


If we value the pursuit of knowledge, we must be free to follow wherever that search may lead us. The free mind is not a barking dog, to be tethered on a 10-foot chain.
-Adlai E. Stevenson Jr (1900-1965)