maybe some of us just aren't good in anything

My first Christmas present is of course, from myself. Its a really cute musical jewelry box and the snowman in the center spins :D Now I have something in my room to remind me of Christmas. Lately, I've been fooling around with Photoshop alot, trying to create different image effects for my old photos, since they are just lying around useless in my EHD anyway. May have accidentally figured out how to create a slight brown tinge in my photos for the 'old' effect. Trying not to read online tutorials cause I think it'll be fun to experiment, rather than reading instructions.

Yesterday, I picked up Shadow of the Wind again, and I realised I have forgotten the beginning of the story! I'm making it a personal goal to finish this book by the end of December.

Made a friend at A&L's wedding dinner, and we went for lunch today. Personally, I have no problems meeting new people, and since he's A's friend and not a complete stranger, I figured it would be okay. Lyd seems slightly suspicious, and I told her something along the lines of how we shouldn't create something out of nothing. Its nothing wrong, making new friends. And she says just in case, I should tone down my er.. personality, so as not to give the wrong signs. That always seems to be the case, she says. But I wonder, how does one "tone themselves down"? I am the way I am. I'm silly, I make weird remarks, I laugh, I joke. (I'm sure there isn't), but in the event that anyone think there's something more, that really is out of my control. Maybe I just don't see why I should repress myself, or change the way I speak/act just for another person who may or may not matter to me.
I would be a hypocrite if I said I hated fake people, and then I turn around and be fake too.
I'm always going to be this way, and how everyone reads it is really none of my problem.
Either you hang around, or you don't.
Sometimes, I just wish people won't always try to expect something of me. Whatever it is you want, I can't find it, and I can't give it to you. If you think its painful for you, then it is so for me too. You are hoping for something you won't get, and I'm expected to give out something I don't have. Both sides of the coin are the same, if you ask me.