"you get what anybody gets - you get a lifetime."

How does one prepare themselves for the death of a loved one?

How, and when do we say our last goodbyes?

How would we know if every moment we have together is the last one, or if any moment we're away could be an opportunity missed to spend one last time to speak to each other, and laugh together?

I don't think I'm quite ready to let go yet.

Please stay for a while more.

This morning, they played a song on MTV that I haven't heard since I was 15.

I suppose that's the best part about old songs; when they're played, everything you ever thought of then suddenly comes rushing back to you.

"I never conquered, rarely came

16 just held such better days,

Days when I still felt alive,

We couldn't wait to get outside,

The world was wide, too late to try,

The tour was over, we'd survived

I couldn't wait till I got home

To pass the time in my room alone."