I'm writing this for you

That moment which I had feared for 8 months has finally come, and still I felt the pinch when you told me. And I feel like I need to start preparing for your inevitable departure. I need to stay away, I need to get used to not seeing you, not speaking to you... It would be better if I am happy with the way things are right now, nothing more and nothing less. But like anyone else, I'm greedy. I want more. I want days and nights with you, I want to see you when I want to see you, I want to talk to you all the time, I wanna know what you like and what you don't like. I wanna know when you're unhappy and I want you to tell me about it. I wanna know what makes you smile and I'll do it just to see you smile. I want you to know how I feel but I'm afraid you won't return the feelings, or worse, you do but there's nothing we can do about it. But most of all, I want to stop thinking because nothing will ever come true, and I just want to bury my heart until I stop feeling for you.