..its 2:00am.
I'm really tired, but I promised Chris I'd call to wake her up at 2:30, so I'm gonna have to stay up for a while more. Currently doing my BQ. Thank you, Mr R, for not making us pass up both the presentation board and model this Thursday. I don't think I can cope with another week of all-nighters. As it is, I'm already going crazy.
I'm in a bad need of advice. Sometimes, I wonder if I should have stopped when I knew I couldn't cope. But its so hard to tell yourself to give up on something you've dreamt of for so long. I wanted it so badly then. Even now, I want it still. But my physical self is not agreeing. I'm so tired, every single bone in my body is aching. When I'm sleeping, I'd feel guilty, thinking about all my assignments still unfinished. I resemble a panda more than a person, and I've got no time for anything else anymore. I haven't talked to anyone outside of college for so long, we're all drifting apart. Even Lyd, whom I used to talk to every single day, we haven't spoken to each other for months. Except when I finally met her after Jappy class last Tuesday. And even then, I have to admit, for the first time, it felt weird. Because I haven't spoken to her for so long, I had no idea what to say anymore.
I want someone to tell me I should keep going, because I've already come this far ahead. But at the same time, I also want someone to reassure me and tell me its okay to quit, because I've tried so hard already. Not that I can really quit. Because the only way I can leave is to graduate.
So, I have to keep going, right?
I'm really tired, but I promised Chris I'd call to wake her up at 2:30, so I'm gonna have to stay up for a while more. Currently doing my BQ. Thank you, Mr R, for not making us pass up both the presentation board and model this Thursday. I don't think I can cope with another week of all-nighters. As it is, I'm already going crazy.
I'm in a bad need of advice. Sometimes, I wonder if I should have stopped when I knew I couldn't cope. But its so hard to tell yourself to give up on something you've dreamt of for so long. I wanted it so badly then. Even now, I want it still. But my physical self is not agreeing. I'm so tired, every single bone in my body is aching. When I'm sleeping, I'd feel guilty, thinking about all my assignments still unfinished. I resemble a panda more than a person, and I've got no time for anything else anymore. I haven't talked to anyone outside of college for so long, we're all drifting apart. Even Lyd, whom I used to talk to every single day, we haven't spoken to each other for months. Except when I finally met her after Jappy class last Tuesday. And even then, I have to admit, for the first time, it felt weird. Because I haven't spoken to her for so long, I had no idea what to say anymore.
I want someone to tell me I should keep going, because I've already come this far ahead. But at the same time, I also want someone to reassure me and tell me its okay to quit, because I've tried so hard already. Not that I can really quit. Because the only way I can leave is to graduate.
So, I have to keep going, right?
8 comments:
Keep going.
=)
Just keep swimming, just keep swimming.. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.. What do we do? We swim, swim, swim! OH! HO! HO! How I love to swim! *wiggles like Dory*
xoxo
Tony : thanks :) haha.. i needed that..
Leen : I can't swim! haha but I'll try to..
haha do your dad on9?.. send link him to this blog. and he will understand haa. easy right?
LOL
=)
you can't surrender fight till the end..
Shon : haha nope, my dad doesn't use the com. and its no use ler. i was the one who insisted on doing this, so i'll have to keep going on! haha..
FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!
but remember o
Tomorrow We Fight, Tonight We
PARTY!!!!
Don't have to swim, just paddle your life away. *evil laughs*
Shon : haha, i would give up alot to party right now. :(
Ai Leen : i can't paddle either, i think. hahaha.. i can float in the water though.
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